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Love, Labor

Love, Labor

The contractions hit harder and faster than I imagined. This couldn’t be the real deal, though. While I’d been dilated and effaced for weeks, with an induction scheduled the next morning, I didn’t let myself believe this was actual labor. After all, I’d had two false alarms before, and I knew they’d just send meRead More

Time is Drawing Near

Time is Drawing Near

The wee hours of the morning. That delicate span of time when either you’ve stayed up very¬†late, or gotten up very early. My husband is the latter. He leans to kiss me in bed, my hour tousled unattractively against my pillow. I tell him I love him, words spoken¬†through my lisp-inducing mouthpiece used to preventRead More

Body, Heart, Spirit: I’m a Bleeder

Body, Heart, Spirit: I’m a Bleeder

When. She used the word when, not if. “When you deliver your third child, we’ll need to be prepared for a possible transfusion. You lost a lot of blood with that surgery, and we need to be ready if that’s going to be an ongoing issue.” My mind stuck on the “when,” rather than onRead More

Finding Gratitude when Crushed Beneath the Weight of Worry

Finding Gratitude when Crushed Beneath the Weight of Worry

Today, my spirits are low. My energy is low. My ability to rub to coherent thoughts together and make a spark is low. This is a problem for me, this inability to stand my ground beneath the weight of worry. The worst case scenario is the only one I can imagine, and the alternatives seemRead More

Why I’m Dreading my Sonogram

Why I’m Dreading my Sonogram

Almost immediately after dropping the “baby bomb” on social media, doubts ran rampant in my mind. “Was it too soon? What if I’m wrong? What if the pregnancy doesn’t stick? What if…” Even though the bloodwork confirmed, even though my body is exhibiting ALL of the classic symptoms of early pregnancy, part of me worriedRead More

Not Pregnant, Pregnant, Not Pregnant, then Pregnant Again: The Rest of the Story

Not Pregnant, Pregnant, Not Pregnant, then Pregnant Again: The Rest of the Story

Last week, I wrote a post for WhattoExpect.com, the website spawned from the infamous “What to Expect When You’re Expecting” pregnancy bible that’s on every woman’s nightstand who’s “with child.” It was a dream for me, the chance to write on such a big platform, and I was nervous I wouldn’t be able to comeRead More